I’ve kept this quiet for 38 days due to these 2 recurring questions:
1) Is this happening, did I really move to Bali?
2) Am I going to pull through this plan of living in Bali?
..I guess it’s time to realize that I’ve survived through with what only seemed like a wishful thought. Everyone who has been to Bali, leaves with the same aspiration – ‘I want to live in Bali’ or ’I am going to return someday’. Like a headless chicken, I’ve got on the herd race with the rest of the opportunists who resides on this mystical island and call it ‘home’.
It was probably more than 6 years ago when I first laid foot on this land. I remember being younger and deeply conflicted about my purpose in life but it was the early stages of slowly being exposed to a reality beyond. It was the birth of hope and curiosity to discover the alternative ways of living, brewing a new found passion for traveling the world. As Aristotle said, “Hope is a waking dream.”
On this first trip to Bali with my family, I felt the sensation of desire, I knew then that one day, I will come back to Bali to reside and take some time to be a part of this sacred place.
Little did I know that today in 2013, I would look back at that exact moment and say, ‘I made it happen’. Years after, now matured from infinite life experiences and in peace with who I am, I made a conscious choice to my purpose in life. Simply to allow my dreams to be the motivation of my actions and goals, to build bridges between dream and reality. No matter how far fetched or irrational, I have only one way to find out and that is to try and fight for it to come true. The results are the latter.After more than 5 times of revisiting Bali, I am now riding on a quest as a dreamer and aspiring nomad. Juggling a handful of emotions all at once hoping to find balance – of fear and courage, insecurity and confidence, anxious and calm, but with an underlying theme to this journey, which is happiness.Each shared memory of Bali puts a smile to my face. Whatever the outcome may be for this phase, these obstacles is a given only to challenge myself to higher level of enlightenment and patience. I am gamed to fight this battle if it means reaching for the sky, stars and beyond.
“Our truest life is when we are in dreams awake.” ― Henry David Thoreau